Parent Knows Best

hiiiiiiiii bloggaaa!
soooo. i've been missing to write so much since these 2 months really hectic and a non-stop-blue-feeling-swing-mood-everyday.
today actually is one of the day that i feel that. i'm so drown in blue and badmood from the early morning 'til maybe a couple of minutes ago.
it is already 1 month i'm not go home -to Bukittinggi, and of course i miss home like a lot. but i had many college activities in here just like i said before and i have 1 'undercover' thing to do.
why undercover? because nobody know it. well not literally nobody because i told my younger sister and a couple of friend in here, but yea just say that. i love the term undercover 😂
in the beginning of April, i applied to be an announcer for one of radio in Padang. it took almost 3 weeks for the radio to follow me up. i'm waiting with so much doubt and impatient feeling because this is my 1st time.
it's not that i don't believe my own capability - i do, so much, i knew i have a potential in this. but it's the nervous-waiting-moment when you want something so much and wait so long with a thought that going every where through all the possibilities, i think. i hope you got that 😂 i sometimes express my feelings with complicated words, just to be a li'l bit dramatic, lol.
sooo, i do the vocal test, the writing test, the interview, and finalyyyyy, i got a message this morning told that i can be a part of their team, as an announcer! (yeeayy?)
in every radio in this city, there is a training before you officially become an announcer, and the training in this radio i applied is about 2-3 weeks every night (after 7 pm, yes), and it will started tomorrow, in Monday.
you know, since my very 1st day in this city i always use public transportation because i don't bring my own vehicle. the radio is about 1,5 hour from my rent house :') yup. true.
since i already done my job, my undercover mission, i told my parents 'bout this. also my younger brother. they are so happy of course in the 1st place, but not until i told them the detail like night training, no vehicle, don't know ho to go, plan to borrow somobody's motorcycle, probably if the training is about 2-3 hours i'll be arrived in my rent house at 11 pm everyday, and, so on.
what my parents say? yea, of course a big no :(
they said it will dangerous for me, too risky, no guarantee, bad bargain, no choice, and many logical reason that they thought is the best for me.
i have to leave it behind. bye bye radio.
idk. because i already spent so much of my efforts in this, i feel so upset and sad and down, i really am in doubt right now. like idk yet what is the right thing to do. i cry a lot today. but you know, i always believe my parents permission, is everything when i have any activity to do.
writing here honestly makes me feel better even just a bit. oh how i love to write :')
but, i still can't get enough all of this. maybe not yet today. lemme cry again. thanks for reading. bye.